i’m sorry i want to show you my roses and not my buds
i’m sorry that my thorns keep you farther from my love
i’m not keeping you at arms out of fear or disgust
i’m only human, my thorns outpace my trust

if we were meant to be 
i wouldn't have to harm myself to hold you
you’re worth the break of a thorn
i’ll force myself to conform
i may bend but i don't break
there’s a sunny day in the eye of the storm
even amidst the chaos

i appreciate that you want to be with me for the process, 
the thorns on my stem explain the harm in my progress
i’m rising as a rose, but my thorns still grow in excess
come see me when i’ve grown but know my growing will be endless.

i can pain myself for love 
or understand i’ve outgrown you
i’d love to love you without restraint
to know we don’t clash 
because we grow as one
i’m going through things i can’t explain
if you’re growing too you could understand
but if that’s the case
we may be able to grow together yet

02/28/2023