i’m content on my own
but sometimes it hurts to be alone
not for a lack of love
its quite polar
i have so much love to give that’d i spoil her
but there’s no ‘her’ to give this world to

when you have this much love to give
it becomes overwhelming 
i need someone to love
i’m motivated by my acts of service
romantically i have no one to serve
but i cant give my heart to anyone
i need someone who deserves it

how could such a positive love
feel so negatively overwhelming
so much joy it’s sadness
so much love it’s heartbreak
reciprocation is the only bandage
that could heal this heartache

i want someone who reciprocates me
shows me they’re worth my time
i want to feel appreciated too
it’s not for a lack of trying
in search, i’d give my last dollar
but many i’ve found weren’t worth a dime

i’m a hopeful romantic
well,
fully romantic, but i’ve lost hope
i know love exists
because i know my heart
but finding someone else like me?
i wouldnt know where to start

a love this genuine
ignores the circumstances 
unconditional until the very end
my love will outlast my existence 
otherwise it’d meet conditions 

10/08/2023